Feelings

Feelings

Feeling empty,

Feeling sad,

Feeling like your going numb.
Feeling scared,
Feeling bad,

Won’t someone take this pain away?

I’m feeling trapped,
With no way out.
I just want to find a place to get out.
Thinking things,
I really shouldn’t.
Planning things,

That would hurt more.

I’m being suffocated,

So many goddam questions.
You know there’s something up,
But sorry Dad,
I won’t tell you.

I can not breathe,

How I wish I couldn’t.
For the blackness beckons,
And has got to be better than this.

I am disgusting,
Horrible and mean.
I deserve to die,
Cos scum like me are not people,
And I don’t deserve to live.
I am a thing,
Of only pain and feelings.
Everything that you say and show me,
I hurt a little more.

Sadly I must go,
And do as I must do.
And for the hurt I say to you,
I am sorry.